This morning I was punished, quite severely. My faults included not ‘spring cleaning the kitchen cupboards yesterday as ordered, not getting out of bed when ordered and failing to showing Mistress enough respect over the past two days.
As I dried my eyes and put the cane and bench away, Mistress informed me we were going out to lunch and would be having a ‘chat’.
“I no longer see the need for maintenance punishment every Thursday,” said Mistress calmly between coffee sips. “I no longer want to have to force myself to do something on a set day if I’m not in the mood for it.”
Mistress took me aback with her statement. But she was far from finished.
“From now on, I’m going to punish you as and when I feel it necessary. If that means you are caned every day then so be it. It may mean you won’t be caned for weeks. Either way I decide when the cane is used. And I hope that we’ll have to use it less in future as you become better behaved. It’s entirely up to you.
“We have domestic discipline because you need it and I don’t see the value where you can misbehave every day and then feel like you’ve wiped the slate clean each Thursday with a maintenance punishment.
“In future I want to see real improvement in your attitude, in your work within the house and in your respect for me. And when I don’t feel you are up to scratch, then I will cane you.
“And,” she added as afterthought, but a very telling one, “if I’m in a bad mood, then I’ll cane you anyway - purely for my pleasure.”
It was a daunting thought, though my mind was racing with the ramifications of no maintenance. But she hadn’t finished.
“In future you will keep a record of any instances you think you have failed to measure up and you will report them to me. However, I shall also be keeping track of your behavior. It will be entirely my decision when you are punished. I think you’ve been far too controlling in our (DD) relationship and from now on I am taking control.”
There was silence.
I’m never happier than when Mistress is in charge and this sounded like she was taking real control. But I was scared at the prospect. She was right, at least with maintenance I could prepare myself. Now, it could happen at any time – as this morning’s punishment had showed.
“I’m surprised you don’t think we need the Thursday appointment but I understand why you wish to cancel it," I said. "And I’m delighted you feel a need to take control. I thought you were in control but I’m happy with what ever decision you make Mistress. Purely as a devil’s advocate question though, how important do you think it is for us to have a DD regime?”
I received a very dark stare.
“I think it is very important. You seem to possess a self-destruct button where you become more and more arrogant and selfish, the longer you go without me correcting you. I look at you sometimes and think how rude you are. A good caning takes you down a peg or two. So, yes, I think the cane keeps you in line and I can definitely see the difference for a few days - but then you lose track again. I wasn’t sure when we started this if it wasn’t purely for your pleasure. In fact, I'm sure it was. But I’m afraid you really do need regular discipline and hopefully, over time, you will learn.”
“Yes Mistress. But isn’t there a danger without maintenance we’ll just slip into doing nothing like we have done before?”
“Unfortunately for you, there isn’t.” She gave me a wry grin. “As I said, in the past you just misbehaved and were happy to have the slate cleaned. Forget your place now and you’ll be punished straight away so you have better be on your best behavior at all times. That’s the difference. This is going to be full time now, not when you feel like it. I’m not having you controlling the situation any more. You’ll get set tasks, on top of chores you have. You wanted us to live a full-time FLR. Well now we are going to. Do you understand?”
“I do Mistress. Thank you.”
“I think our little break helped put us back on track and the training this past week or so has helped but I want your submissive attitude to become second nature. We’ll continue your training for another week and then re-assess the situation.”