One thing I forget to mention in my latest blog is that we’ve not been using any restraints for my maintenance punishments.
That probably doesn’t sound very much but it’s a big step forward for me – and it was my suggestion to Mistress that we should try it.
I’m not the bravest submissive in the world - I’m actually a first grade wimp - and for someone who rarely goes a day without fantasising of the most extreme thrashings, when it comes down to it, I cope with the fantasy much better than the reality.
But in my own head I felt that trying to take my punishment with good grace was all part of the overall regime so I suggested to Mistress we should not use them for the maintenance sessions.
The result is that while I do break from my bending position over the bench during punishment, I have the fortitude to resume my position immediately.
I do miss that rather poignant moment when Mistress clips my wrists in place but for me, taking my punishment unrestrained has become an important issue and is no an integral part of the entire submissive act of accepting these weekly canings.
I know I should have always had this kind of acceptance but I just wonder if any others out there have undergone this change of attitude?